It’s
just not fair. Why do we never appreciate opportunities when we
are young? Why does it have to take us 14 years to realise 'those
were the best years' of our lives? Why the hell do we never remember
the most important details?
Or, is it only me?
I am talking about my last visit to Baton Rouge, Louisiana. Where
my beloved school, of which I am a proud alumni, LSU is located.
Where the most important part of my family is living. Where, the
most significant part of my life with the most important details
took place.
After travelling so much, and having great experiences
all around the world, meeting plenty of impressive personalities
and learning from them, you grow out of yourself to become larger
than your own life. That’s the time when you start revisiting
your past and put everything into perspective. You revisit all
your memories. And everything seems to fit. Everything makes sense.
Your past becomes your present. Perhaps, your future.
It was not easy. I was a little scared girl when
I first arrived here. When I left after 4 years, I believed I
could change the way world revolved around me. In some respects,
I made it happen. For the rest, I am still working on it.
Louisiana is the southern part of US. The humidity
can get so high, it rains most of the time. But if you go during
winter, that’s when you enjoy the blue skies with refreshing breeze
against your face and the sun that grabs you with its arms. As
usual for all the south concept, the people are nice here. They
feel the sun, they are happy. They are comfortable. They are welcoming.
New Orleans, the city that was included in the
famous Louisiana purchase, bought back from Napoleon in 1803 for
15 million dollars, is one of the highlights as everyone would
know. This is where all the Jazz began. This is where the most
colourful festival Mardi Gras takes place. This is where you crave
for seafood. This is where you feel the French presence in the
most southern, happy, sensible way. This is where you scroll around
the streets feeling nothing but that tune in you: Just like Jazz:
Smooth and defined with your rhythm.
Its been 10 years since I have been to Louisiana.
Arriving after 25 hours of travelling, I had this odd feeling
in me: It felt only like last year, that I have graduated. ‘I
remember Chimes, I was there last Friday!’ ‘That’s where I took
my Marketing classes’. ‘This is the lake where we had that first
moment’- ‘Shall we go to the pool and study there?’ Late nights
in Louis Café.
Where the hell did all the time go????
Oh, there is the awareness level rising again. 50 different kinds
of trees on campus-Did I know that? Course not. Crab-fingers taste
the best here (shall I disclose the info that I ordered chicken
when I was at Mike Andersons for my graduation supper?) Campus
is surrounded with Italian Renaissance style buildings-Did I care
then? It did not make even a tiniest difference.
I realised last 10 days, this is the place I
grew up and became a person. Everything, even the way everything
smells, seems familiar. I feel comfortable here. More than that,
I feel home. This is probably why I feel that I have some unfinished
business here. This is why I feel LSU is calling me back. Would
they be interested in having me in their Communications program?
Boy, I would love to turn things upside down in graduate school
to prove them what I am capable of now. Worth to pursue? Maybe…
Most importantly, values change while time goes
by. The question is: Do I keep exploring and decide where I should
settle, or do I settle as I feel like and move on as I feel like?
What’s more important in life, try to catch it, or let it follow
you?